Winter

 When people think of transformative season, it's always spring or summer but mine is winter. When the cool breeze finally starts to set in after a long summer, it feel a sense of hope and excitement for the future. I think about cozy nights alone, eating a meal and watching a video. I think of going out to eat with my friends, meeting up when the sun is down. I think of living back at my mum's place in my tiny room, single bed with my cart sleeping on the pillow. I could reach over and kiss her any time I want. I could snuggle in her coat for warmness and listen to her heart beat. There's so much nostalgia but so much hope that comes with winter. 

Winter is when I broke up with my first real adult boyfriend, it's the season I moved back home, and though it was a sadness period of grieving, what comes after is hope and freedom to live a future the way i want it. I freedom of texting my friend to see if that want to go for dinner, the freedom to come home at whatever time I want. Winter to me is freedom. 

Winter is when I moved back home to my parents after living with my ex boyfriend for a year, it's the time where I get to spend it with Cherry and have her sleep next to me. Being able to take care of my child and seeing her love grows for me is something I will always cherish. Winter to me is being in the comfort of the people you love and having access to love when your heart need it most. Though it was cold, my heart was warm. 

Winter is when I settle into my first home. My roommate moved out and it was the first time my house really felt like home and I can start to relax and feel excited to decorate it the way I want. We were still Ubering our food and getting use to all the noises of the house, everything still feel new. Winter to me is newness and seeing the possibilities of creating a place that I belong and feeling like I achieved something big on my own. Winter give my permission to be proud of myself. 


Every era of my life Winter has played a big role and I'm excited for what this Winter has in store for me. 

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